I 'm happy to be with all of the family. Scout is my favorite of the little ones she is one different character. She won't take any mess from anyone and doesn't really care about living up to the expectations of others like her aunt thinks she should be more lady like and act like a woman and that is in no way of her interest. I think she will follow in her father's footsteps and become a lawyer of some sort because she is always able to argue her case. Today for instance, Scout called her cousin a “whore lady” and that was all I knew of the situation and I still proceeded to lick her. I didn't know why she had called him that and I didn't know what he did to her, all I did was went straight to the lickings. After that, Scout was very angry with me and he father took her and Jem home. I went their house to explain what led up to that consequence and Scout ended up explaining something to me. Of course I told her that she deserved the whooping for using that sort of language when I had told her not to earlier in the day. She explained to me how I only took the time to listen to one side of the story and that I told her she could only use that language in extreme situations. This happened to be an extreme situation, see her cousin was talking bad about her dad and of course she wouldn't stand for that. I think if I would have taken the time and herd that, I would have never whipped her in the first place but I was so interested in showing the family that I knew how to be a good father. After she explained this to me, I was very mad at myself for doing that to my favorite niece.
Now the only possible way that I can repay her is by keeping this from her dad. Scout promised her dad she wouldn't get mad when people talked bad about him and she broke it. I don't blame her, I think that if I were in that situation I would have done the same thing I can't stand people talking about anyone in my family. Then again, I also feel bad about keeping something from my own brother but I know I owe at least that to Scout. All of this is the exact reason why I can't have any kids, I don't really understand them like Scout said. I'm not like my brother, I don't really think I have the patience or time to raise a child and I hate the fact of staying with one woman for the rest of my life. I mean, what if I get tired of her and we separate then I would be a disgrace to all of the town. No one marries and then splits up. So I would only have two choices, stay with the woman and be miserable for the rest of my life, or separate from her and be looked down upon by everyone.
I am kind of jealous of my brother's ability to raise two wonderful children without a wife and still balance having a very good job. I think that if I were to have kids they would grow up like the Ewells and I'd rather not have children than have them act like that family. I think that I would be ready one day but today or and day soon is not the time. For now the closest to kids I will have is my nieces and nephews that I see all but once or twice a year. I hope my family does understand that and doesn't consider me any less of a man just because I don't want a wife or children. Well I have to go I have a patient that should be here in a little while.
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